Stay Well

I'm writing this post in a moment of frustration in hopes it helps lead me to a more calm place. This time is anxiety provoking for everyone - in the midst of uncertainty; frustration and anxiety are the easiest emotions to feel. I'm stuck in a place where I don't completely understand the steps or precautions that are being taken around me. I feel very small in this moment. I feel very unheard regarding my rational and potentially irrational fears. I feel responsible for the mental, emotional, physical health of my clients. If we fall ill, if we close, where do they go, who helps them? It is a challenging amount of emotions all coming into focus simultaneously. There is no way for us to know if the decisions we make will be the right ones. Or if the decisions we make could end up creating serious consequences for the people we should be supporting during this time. I do not envy the humans responsible for pulling the strings above but I also remain in my feeling of smallness... my feelings that the anxieties we, in the field, are having right now are not ones that can be empathized with by our superiors. That the risk we are taking is completely unique to our tiny bubble of this industry. I love what I do and I understand that I signed up to be in a high risk environment. The purpose of my work is certainly coming into focus everyday we come into this building and take these risks knowing that is providing our clients with support, normalcy and a sense of community. We can only hope that the universe is preparing a path for all of us, clients and staff included. That we can continue being healthy enough to educate and support one another.